Bloh

2010-01-26T22:10:00.001+08:00

2010-01-26T01:00:00.001+08:00

i need a reason to stay, a reason to believe, a reason to keep at it.

damn it.

fucking useless.

some days i make it through
and then there's nights that never end

2010-01-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

new favourite song of mraz? i think so.

because I'm crazy like the rest of us
but I'm crazier when I'm next to her

2010-01-25T02:03:00.001+08:00

there are so many words that there are none.

2010-01-24T21:50:00.004+08:00

still haven't started on fa and stats homework, am 2 chapters behind on bizlaw, and theres an 10% fa quiz on tuesday i havent even started studying for.

add to that the need to train for ippt because i am pathetically unfit right now.

desperate for changing
starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
chasing after you

I'm hanging by a moment

2010-01-24T00:38:00.002+08:00

ns men interview was interesting.

im tired. lots of work to catch up on.

did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

2010-01-21T23:42:00.002+08:00

assignment due tomorrow at 5pm, and i havent even got the textbook to do the questions. i'll have to buy the book tomorrow morning and rush it out.

but then i have a 12-315 lesson. nice. what a bite in the ass by procrastination. oh well.

spent the whole of bizlaw trying to do the adrace website. will continue during tomorrow's statistics lesson.

also got utterly raped for asking a damn stupid question. looked like a bloody idiot.

since i don't have the txtbook, i can't do the questions tonight, i might as well dota after this and screw homework.

i can foresee my grades slipping even further this sem. oh well. to hell with it.

I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead

lifehouse is awesome.

if life is but a play, maybe we all should have scripts. so that we know what to say and what to do and what to expect.

because now i really dont.

2010-01-20T00:38:00.002+08:00

and then it starts raining at this hour.

the wind, the music, the sounds of rain, the night.

three letters missing.

2010-01-20T00:08:00.003+08:00

looking through runawaytrain's old stuff, and came across this.

Lifehouse - Breathing

Cause I’m hanging on every word you said,
And even if you don’t wanna speak tonight
Thats alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to,
Sit outside heaven’s door and listen to you breathing
That’s where I wanna be yeah

2010-01-19T21:48:00.002+08:00

想听你那边的空气

有什麽精采的话题

你还是

温柔给我婉转的距离

伪装我自己

透明的叹息

最后

还是我的秘密

2010-01-19T01:04:00.003+08:00

spending the late nights on dota and youtube and tumblr. what a thoroughly uneventful weekend.

early morning lesson, and i'm still up. oh well.

i like britain's got talent. it's much better than the pile of hogwash that is american idol.

choice is what we always want, but when it comes down to it, i think the absence of choice really makes it easier much of the time.

listening to sappy songs and reading mlia.

waiting for something, knowing theres nothing.

decisions.

riffs and distortions. what an escape.

2010-01-16T14:27:00.003+08:00

after all this time

i was just a funny little footnote stuck at the bottom of the page

never meant to be part of the story.

2010-01-11T18:30:00.003+08:00

fucking horrible day. sigh.

long day tomorrow. and i have yet to get started on the homework due tomorrow.

i still can't believe i lost just like that.

even in my dreams i cant escape.

此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

2010-01-10T21:05:00.003+08:00

i got a new phone. yay. nokia e63. the nokia qwerty phone everyone has. the cheap version, anyways. couldnt manage to find a pouch for it in 4 handphone shops though. anyone?

ran 6km today. almost died doing so. damn bloody fucking unfit. zzz.

can't seem to get enough rest lately, although i spend much of my time lazing around at home.

is there a problem if you're 21 but looking forward to retirement?

shit i think im losing my marbles

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

2010-01-07T18:41:00.001+08:00

books i want to read.

A Clockwork Orange
Catch 22
1984
Every Single Gregory Maguire Book

LAST 2 SLIDES OF BIZLAW COME ON THIS LESSON END ALREADY

2010-01-07T13:03:00.002+08:00

school has barely started and work work work is piling piling piling.

i really have to get off my lazy ass and start working working working.

some things never change. going to send cheng off later. and eat popeye's i hope. impromptu k session was fun but expensive. darn. broke broke broke.

focus. don't lose it now.

2010-01-06T15:49:00.003+08:00

rough draft is awesome.

maybe someday i look back, all these will seem funny or dumb or ridiculous.

but right now, that is a little hard to imagine.

management comms was interesting. financial accounting was boring. upcoming bizlaw and stats. omg stats. horror.

how do you tell a loss if u nvr owned it?

Quiet is my loudest cry
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me

2010-01-05T00:11:00.004+08:00

You know that feeling?

That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible?

I want to believe that.

nick n norah's infinite playlist is an amazing film.

this is in all possibility gay and unmasculine and pussy and what have you, but i have totally fallen in love with this tumblr, and this tumblr, and this tumblr.

thats just a few among many others. makes me want to migrate to tumblr for easy following. maybe one day when i get off my lazy ass.

unless you can say no, i can't stop.

2010-01-04T00:59:00.003+08:00

我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候还能多久

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it wasn't said to you

You touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone

No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone

When I sleep
You're everywhere
But when I wake
You're never there

So many blogs, pictures, words, texts, articles, news, posts, entries about lovers and being in love.

what of the loveless?

for once, I really, really have no idea what to do and where to go.

2010-01-01T02:21:00.002+08:00

and i spent the last hours of 2009 and the first hours of 2010 on garena, on dota, with other like-minded gamers who can't give a shit about the festive celebrations.

ok, who am i kidding. we are losers who weren't invited to any sort of party. LOL.

oh wells. back to my roots. geeky online gaming ftw.

back to the roots is good i guess. that's where you first found yourself. for better or for worse.

should i just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads nowhere?

or would it just be better not to know. feeling like pandora's box was ripped open.

but even as pandora's evils were released, there was hope, wasn't there?

and yet, in one iteration of pandora's box, the ancient Greeks seemed to regard hope as dangerous as the rest of the evils, which was why it was sealed in pandora's box in the first place.

Perhaps every accidental cluster of people has a short period of grace, in between the initial shyness and prejudice on one hand and the eventual repugnance and betrayal on the other.

Wicked is a terrific read. many thanks to lun for the reccy.

some days all i wanna do is to fall into bed with a good book, hear the rain patter inccessantly outside the window, and just let my thoughts assail me. school's starting in 5 days, and i can't say i am glad. till then at least i can still look forward to cytan's 22nd.

perhaps.

just realised that this entry is so disjoint and without coherence.

like everything else.

happy new year then.

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?

2009-12-30T13:26:00.001+08:00

in school for meeting, without my laptop charger and only 2 hours of batt remaining.

in school for gym, without my matric card.

ruddy-fucking-brilliant.

2009-12-30T03:16:00.002+08:00

some differences can never be reconciled.

2009-12-29T23:24:00.004+08:00

alone on the bus at night, one of the few times i didn't feel like pulling out the book.

good slow ride, the low whir of the engine and the soft voice of michelle branch playing in my plugs.

trying hard.

I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
You save me in the nick of time
I'm riding the highs, I'm digging the lows
But at least I feel alive
I never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good

i guess.

have to go to school tomorrow for meeting. sian.

meeting on saturday and i can't go.

school starts on monday. sian.

fuck.

2009-12-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

see the things that matter.

i really have to bear that in mind.

also, welcome to another episode of life lessons by daniel. today there is only one lesson, but it is nevertheless extremely important.

ALWAYS CHECK THE PRICE TAG, NO MATTER HOW CHEAP THE ITEM MAY LOOK.

thank you.

in other news, i am officially broke. like very, very, very seriously broke. cai peng from now on. no kidding. ok. after tmr's sopxmas. yay. sopxmas!

AND THEN CAI PENG.

2009-12-24T23:00:00.004+08:00

being in borders reminded me how i used to love books. so many books to read, so many games to play, so many movies to watch. so little time, and absolutely NO MONEY.

im so broke i cant even be bothered to shop. i am very very tempted to just not buy any new clothes at all. blarh.

being in orchard also reminded me how much i HATE CROWDS.

也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中
可是这么一来就一点意义也没有

2009-12-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

today i felt content. it's a good feeling, and not one that comes often. i gotta learn how to do it more. contentment.

i am feeling the temptation to throw caution to the wind.

thunder is an awesome song.

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other?

2009-12-20T02:57:00.002+08:00

"It's weird that whatever else is on your mind, whether it's the downfall of global economics or terrible environmental troubles, the thing that always gets you most is when you fancy someone."

-Chris Martin, when asked about The Scientist

its a damn good song.

lost much at mahjong again. fark. mahjong luck has been total bullshit for quite some time now. zzz. and internet explorer is pissing me off by still refusing to load letssingit.

hope i can wake up later for ball. and then meeting sa og for dinner. how ownage is that. 4 years on. wow. i feel old.

right then. i need new songs. ikimonogakari's album in 3 days.

2009-12-18T23:35:00.003+08:00

Baby says I can't come with him
And I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked?
You know, and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything

remembering how rachael yamagata and quiet brought me through much of tekong days.

best lyrics ever. funny how songs i could never understand now seem so blatant.

What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again

i guess you'd feel even less.

2009-12-18T04:12:00.002+08:00

and a few simple words from serxing that actually made a lot of sense really cleared my mind.

perhaps i was blinded all this while, shackled by the all the inadequacies.

2009-12-18T03:25:00.000+08:00

i think

i really haven't grown at all.

still the same stupid, useless, naive person.

2009-12-18T02:57:00.002+08:00

i am very tired.

however did the euphoria sink down to this?

2009-12-18T01:52:00.001+08:00

You're the kind of girl
who can take down a man
and lift him back up again

i have never doubted myself so much before.

2009-12-17T00:35:00.004+08:00

one life lesson i forgot to mention.

Ikea does not give shopping bags, hence the need for me to lug the basket around like a hobo.

oh, and Ikea's one dollar dogs pwn your ass. that's right, YOUR ass.

OKAY. since i have to be in school early tomorrow, or rather, approxymately 8 hours later today, i might as well hit the gym after that and work that gut.

hurrah hurrah.

2009-12-16T18:54:00.003+08:00

my friend's msn nick once said

see the things that matter

what an excellent choice of words, really.

past all those layers, i wonder what i will find.

anyways. life's been good, and lets hope it stays that way. going to school tomorrow at 9am to meet and interview mega big shot in formal wear, followed by avatar, and then ball at night. woots. i hope avatar is good.

learnt many life lessons yesterday.

1. Carrying a basket full of belongings and food and walking on the streets makes you look like a damn hobo. this was one instance where the goatee didn't help.
2. Daiso has the smallest baskets ever. Waste my time. Basket.
3. Chocs and candies are damn expensive.
4. Some things are much harder than they look. WAY. MUCH. HARDER.
5. Working with a budget sucks. I need more money.
6. It's hard to face the problem when the problem is your face. (saw this on a random guy's tee shirt, lol)
7. Do not try to act tough and stand from pasir ris to jurong east on the train after not sleeping the entire night. You will feel like dying.

anyway, hurray to nice friends of people. yay. best method to crisis management is to recruit powerful allies. yes. lol.

2009-12-13T14:13:00.003+08:00

totally digging alison sudol's red hair. for the uninitiated, she is also known as a fine frenzy, and she sang almost lover.

what a boring day. i am hungry.

the sweetest sadness
in your eyes
clever trick

2009-12-13T00:31:00.003+08:00

music at old school timbre was fucked. seriously, whatever happened to musicians? not going to ever go there again. substation ftw please. or walas. damn. lol.

effort effort effort effort effort. i need a damn break man. tired. blah.

the cranberries are so awesome i can't even begin to describe. dolores o'riordan is simply amazing.

blah. no inspiration to write at all. sucks. i hate it when i face this screen and nothing is able to come out, even when my mind is a whirlpool of thoughts. words words words words that refuse to come out proper but are disjoint and disoriented and make absolutely no sense.

ky's coming back tomorrow

You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger?

2009-12-12T02:53:00.003+08:00

wa. cleared the requirement, and am quite content.

however, it still sucks to know i got pwned by the other scholars like no tomorrow. LOL. oh wells. IT IS OK. CLEAR REQUIREMENT FTW.

yes.

ball tomorrow! and then to spend money. dang. already damn bloody broke. still owe lun 13 bucks. damn. NO MOOLAHS I HAVE.

WHICH KOPI UNCLE NEED KOPI BOY?

2009-12-11T16:00:00.002+08:00

even in my dream i get pwned. wtf. lol.

i need to ball more. and i need more money. whose daddy needs an odd-job boy. please let me know. i am willing to be paid in clothes, shoes, bags, shopping vouchers.

2009-12-10T01:57:00.002+08:00

it's 2am, and god knows what i am still doing awake when im supposed to busting out the new feet tomorrow morning at the reservoir. dang.

needs new songs and needs to work out.

needs money too. please remind me to eat cai peng everytime u see me from now on. kthnxbai.

2009-12-09T02:15:00.002+08:00

do you run a race you can't ever see yourself finishing?

i guess it's different, because at least every step is sure to lead you closer to the end. but then again i guess i have nothing to lose in peservering.

or do i.

well.

i need some sense of direction. any kind would be nice. but maybe i have already gotten it.

i really cant see how i am or can become adequate.

oh wells. in other news. finally gonna get my new feet tomorrow. yays.

up down left right. top middle bottom. squares circles triangles rectangles. no no no no no no no no no don't want.

don't mind the random gibberish. too many ants.

I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Knew what?
What I was never sure of with you.

2009-12-06T03:10:00.002+08:00

in the blur, in the flashes, amidst the lights and sounds and the deafening noise that makes you want to shut out your eyes and ears

spinning and spinning and spinning

if we could just sit and watch the sky from dawn till dusk and then till dawn again

wanting the silence and the night to take us away, with only our own solitude for company

understanding that merely being in the presence is more than enough, with no need for cheap words or forced laughter

always remember

always recognise

always understand

what's truly important, and what's not

inconsistencies being the only consistency, ignoring the parts to look at the whole, or ignoring the whole to look at the parts

whichever way, eventually it is all the same.

2009-12-03T23:44:00.003+08:00

rough draft is an awesome song. yellowcard. yeah.

differing priorities, and when they are not possible to be aligned. do you give them up, do you doggedly persist, or do you feign ignorance in the hope it will lie forever undisturbed in the mud and never cause trouble?

gotta wake up my idea.

打起精神来！

I’m finding my own words
my own little stage
my own epic drama
my own scripted page
and then
maybe I'll send you its rough draft

2009-12-02T22:54:00.002+08:00

down the street, the lonely homebound traveller begins his weary trek back home, the path empty and melancholic, save for the street lamps dashing the pavement in soft yellow brilliance.

the court is empty, the hoop is silent. soft music playing in his plugs, he envisions the shot, the ball silently floating home under starless skies. another time, another day, perhaps.

and in the dead of the night, the silence embraces and envelopes him. away from the noise, away from the sounds, thoughts unfettered and uncompromising.

making the decision is hard. sticking with it is even harder.

i am sorry but we interrupt the post with somecomments on singapore's television scene.

lun. HOLY DAYS. says:
lol!
MARTIN YAN ON OKTO
WOW
MARTIN YAN IS SOME ANCIENT SHAT

HAHA. in other news, running feels good. a good run to sort out thoughts is always good. right then. i might get down, i might get out. but at the end of the day i am not going to lose.

2009-12-02T12:25:00.004+08:00

keane did a great job in naming their first album. it's a very apt phrase.

running out of juice. damn.

self-discipline.

I tried my best to be guarded.

But I'm an open book instead.

hopes and fears

2009-12-01T01:04:00.002+08:00

in happy news, the scoreline is SMU: 0 DANIEL NG: 1

yes. and also, i had a multitude of stuff to blog about, but that has been suspended in view of this ground-breaking earth-shattering news.

TANCHIEWYEE IS A FREAKING GENIUS.

yes believe it. every dumb blonde has her day.

alright.

2009-11-29T23:06:00.005+08:00

and then utahime played into my plugs, reminding me of the times after tuition. i used to look forward to those quiet bus rides home alone at night. it was my favourite time of the day. it was also welcome peace after teaching that asshole. lol.

reading my textbook for the first time for tomorrow's finals. so dead. however tomorrow's finals will finally be the final finals for me.

how's that for alliteration. hurhur.

spent the weekend doing nothing except watching endless reruns of whose line and slamdunk, rereading slamdunk, and generally feeling inspired to do all sorts of random crap except study. which explains the last minute cramming now which is not working at all. oh whatever. am in absolutely no mood to study.

ikimonogakari's new album is coming out. yayness for great music. it helps that yoshioke is cute too. hurhur.

see what i mean?

2009-11-28T02:26:00.002+08:00

feels like same shit, different day, except its really same shit everyday. gotta get on to re-readingdreamcatcher. one hell of a good book, which also taught me important phrases like FUBAR and SSDD.

can't believe tom yorke actually said high and dry sucks major ass. i happen to love it.

Don't leave me high
Don't leave me dry

2009-11-26T22:04:00.005+08:00

got ass-raped by mfe so bad it wasn't even funny. oh my holy shit. i actually managed a grand total of 5 marks out of 40. granted it was a freaking hard paper, but other people could at least manage at least 10+ marks. wtf. got owned so damn hard. it helps that i was late for the paper too. wow-fucking-wee. i didnt even get owned this bad during jc math.

damn. to hit 3.4 i must get As for all my remaining mods, which is sadly, although totally impossible, has about 0.001% more hope than even getting a C for mfe. fuck. double degree, scholarship, everything is now hanging in the fucking balance. perhaps its time to go soc sci. damn it. this will be the first and last econs mod i flunk. fuck.

as you can tell, getting utterly and completely dominated by a few sheets of paper within 2 hours makes for very angsty blog entry writing.

in other happier news, exams are as good as OVAH. one last open book exam on monday, which means i have no need to study for it, and then IT IS HOMEFREE.

i need new feet.

2009-11-26T00:20:00.003+08:00

what's truly important, and what's not. perhaps today i learnt something.

in other news.

TIME FOR THE DOUBLE ONSLAUGHT CMON BABY IM ALL READY FOR BGS AND MFE OWNAGE OWN ME PLS OWN ME HARDDDDDDDDDDDDD

how s/m.

2009-11-25T17:53:00.002+08:00

Looks like gandalf is trying to tell me something, since i havent touched my books at all today. gah.

2009-11-25T00:39:00.007+08:00

was slaughtered by the as finals. oh wells. gonna get slaughtered by bgs and mfe on thursday. havent finish studying for both. still far from it in fact, and i dont think i will have time to finish them in one day.

watever. home free after thursday night. whoopee do.

so caught up in everything i forgot monday was fma day. damn. gonnna watch it now.

in the dead of the night, the fan shakes its melacholic head back and forth, vanilla twilight playing in my plugs. and i wonder how did it ever happen.

drenched in vanilla twilight
we'll sit on the front porch all night

2009-11-24T01:25:00.004+08:00

i can't help but think why perhaps it just isn't going to be.

i can't help but think about the difference.

all my hopes and fears come rushing back at once.

is it that hard?

maybe of all people i should know the best.

retrospection at its finest.

i need to escape somewhere and drown myself in indie splendour. walk into a quiet shop, full of trinkets, things we don't see anywhere else. things that were carefully pieced by loving hands, and thrust unto shelves and into boxes, so that others might have the chance to appreciate them too. and the people wouldn't be intrusive, but just going about their own business. they'd be knowing, that we were all in our quiet little worlds, not wanting to be interrupted, just wanting to savour a piece of our own minds, quietly while we could. somewhere down the road then there'd be a quaint little cafe with a lady and her homemade bread, and she'd invite us to sit on her wooden chairs. we'd sip some iced tea, enjoy the peace, the quiet, watch the buildings age invisibly but surely, the occasional passerby just like us finding his own place amongst this beautiful and tidy mess. and everything in sepia, in black and white, in grayscale, and the colours are missing but that's okay because i won't need them anyway. just some nostalgia, some reminiscence, and some time away from loud noises and cars and smog and all that junk. in that charming place we'd sit and watch the sun set, and when the people have long gone and the the only sounds left are the winds yearning for company, we'd finally grab our bags and begin our slow and unwilling walk back. but our thoughts and our memories would still be left, where the ice is melting at the bottom of the glass, and our names carved into the wood of the table.

and maybe if im lucky, there'd be you in all of this.

2009-11-24T00:34:00.002+08:00

cant seem to get down to studying properly.

oh wells. i shall invoke power of adam lambert.

BABY EXAM PAPER YOU KNOW THAT
MAYBE ITS TIME FOR MIRACLES

i only hope i dont do too badly.

or that other people will do worse so that the bell curve will save my ass. HAH.

fat hope im harbouring. everyone's mugging their hearts out while i see and watch reruns of nba highlights and matrix and play my old gameboy games. how to do worse than me. omg.

randomly downloading songs off people's msn nicks nowadays. t3h boredom strikes so deeply. at least i managed to find a few good songs this way. therefore, please continue putting nice songs as nicks.

if you'd just talk to me
till we ain't strangers anymore

2009-11-23T17:38:00.001+08:00

Daniel uses his analytical skills to know that

if he is blogging/on fb/on youtube, then he is not studying.

he is blogging/on fb/on youtube, thus he is not studying.

MODUS PONENS PWNS YOUR ASS IN A 100% VALID ARGUMENT.

2009-11-22T18:07:00.004+08:00

bumped into a group of little girls singing ABBA's thank you for the music at kopitiam today. reminded me of how much i liked the song. and the version by amanda seyfried in the movie.

won't be able to finish studying in time for my papers. slacked too much. oh wells. adam lambert sings to me MAYBE IT'S TIME FOR MIRACLES.

yes.

in other news. i am hungry.

things to do after 26th november.

DOWNLOAD ALL MY EMULATORS AND ROMS AND PLAY ALL MY OLD SNES CLASSICS.
PLAY HALO.
PLAY MORE GAMES.
RUN.
RUN MORE.
SOPXMAS.
KBOX.
NEW YEAR CLOTHES SHOPPING.

plus random get togethers i guess.

seriously broke though. i shall resolve to eat cai peng for the rest my life until i am sufficiently well to do.

cai peng ftw!

I ask in all honesty
What would life be
Without a song or a dance
What are we?

2009-11-21T18:30:00.003+08:00

OMG. totally digging the new hairdo.

can she be my girlfriend please?

2009-11-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

memoirs of a man driven mad by essential matematics for economic analysis.

chiewyee says:
HAHAH
whatever
anyway i need to stop talking to u
i have got WORK TO DO
and a bf to chat
dan dan da man says:
yes so do i
wow.
great
chiewyee says:
so do you????
you have a bf to chat with???
dan dan da man says:
a nice suan to end the chat
ya
big foolscap.
i need to chat with it abt math.
HAHA I THINK THIS IS HILARIOUS I NEED TO BLOG ABOUT THIS.

2009-11-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

waiting for anime to download is a pain, especially when it's going at 20-fucking-kilobytes a second.

i need whiskey, run, gym, ball, sing k, sleep, wake up late, game, read manga, watch anime, go to the movies.

need an escape.

when all the odds seem stacked against you, and no matter how hard you try it doesn't seem to be working, what would you do?

I really do always pick the hardest ones eh.

persevere, determination, doggedness, dedication.

who am i kidding?

rah.

oh, did i mention i fucking hate bgs?

thanks. what an angsty post.

2009-11-18T10:45:00.003+08:00

tiring.

i won't lose. i'll just feel like a dumbfuck if i do. no way.

no one is here by chance.

2009-11-17T11:00:00.002+08:00

discovering my old loves always makes my day, for a while.

does that make sense? making my day for a while. the whole day has to made to say "my day has been made", so you cant "make a day for a while" and then the rest of the day was "unmade" right?

oh, the wonders of english language.

late night mugging can do wonders to your sanity. not that i mugged alot anyway. was alot more interested in youtube and facebook and blogs and webcomics.

needs my weekly anime fix.

And even though
there’s no way of knowing where to go
I promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here

2009-11-16T20:46:00.002+08:00

tired. not just physically.

it's tough to find motivation. tough to find the will to keep going. tough to keep it up.

i don't like feeling unsure and uncertain.

i hope it all turns out well.

exams suck. i don't really even have time to hold a proper conversation with people, because we all need to mug mug mug.

corrinne may will keep me going.

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

2009-11-15T10:31:00.003+08:00

i love to wake up at ntu in the morning. it's very peaceful and tranquil. or maybe it's just cause hall 6 is facing a big field. i so need a quiet getaway.

and the sem has drawn to a close.

last minute journal writing, and then it's time for finals. the last lap of the first race. hope i do ok then. woots.

damn lucky to have been blessed with absolutely wonderful groupmates for bgs and ltb. even though they probably won't see this. i still have to say thanks. woots.

no time for mahjong, or to meet friends, or to do much stuff. bleargh. it's ok. december!

2009-11-13T05:08:00.002+08:00

still in school, hungry, tired and cold.

thank goodness for a great ltb group. rawr.

suddenly everyone is hit. oh wells.

time to buck up.

yeah.

in other news.

i want to pee.

2009-11-11T16:56:00.007+08:00

talking to the cytan clears my mind. that in itself is like totally mindblowing. lol. whoever expected that.

DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT EMO. haha.

in other news.

i worry that i will lose to a memory, because the memory is so much more than the reality.

i worry that i just won't cut it, because things that are around never get noticed, and things that are never to be are always sought after.

i worry that i won't ever become as important, as significant, as essential, because i could never do something like that.

i worry that everything will happen, but for the wrong reasons.

i worry that i cannot create something that feels real enough.

i worry that in the end, im just someone always in the background.

just that, and nothing else.

i'll still try though, coz that's what i said i would do yeah.

so.

have heart, my dear.

2009-11-11T02:11:00.003+08:00

I really really appreciated it.

alright then. i will put in all i got.

jiayou!

能不能暂时把你的勇气给我
在梦想快消失的时候
让我的歌用力的穿过天空
为我爱的人做一秒英雄

what a beautiful mess this is
it's like

picking up trash

in dresses

such a beautiful disaster.

2009-11-09T16:51:00.005+08:00

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm

the end of monday is drawing near, I CAN FEEL IT.

i'll have to survive ltb meeting first. but nvm. my ltb group rocks. CMONZZ BOOMZ SHINGZ.

offically ord'd from bgs project. thank goodness for imba groupmates. YARHHHH.

in no particular order, i want to sing k, skate, gym, run, sleep.

the train ride from jurong east to pasir ris takes exactly an hour.

And you know that we're doomed
My dear
We're slow dancing in a burnin room

john mayer rocks socks.

2009-11-08T23:32:00.001+08:00

hi.

i want monday to end.

i am very tired. rah.

haha.

2009-11-06T17:30:00.003+08:00

meetings meetings meetings

friday saturday sunday

reports reports reports

monday tuesday friday

havent played proper ball in weeks. zzz.

needs booze, a good movie, good music, good food, and good company.

needs to ball and run and gym too.

damn. is this really too demanding.

exams starting in 14 days ending in 24 days time. and i havent started studying. havent even finished homework. going to die like a dog.

rah.

what's the story morning glory?

2009-11-03T01:33:00.002+08:00

omg. i can't believe it took me so long to re-download run by snow patrol.

i am DAMN TIRED. rarrgh.

everything also must put in so much effort.

zzz.

I can only hope it will be worth it man. haha.

i wanted to put the lyrics of run at the back of this entry, like i always do. but this song is too damned good to extract any single bit. damn.

2009-11-02T11:38:00.004+08:00

how nice would it be if the night could never end?

one can only wish.

bidding is horrible. next sem seems to be going to be very very tough. gotta grit through it out then. and i wanna finally start on that damned driving too.

needs ball. needs drinks. needs running.

but most of all, needs more chilling out at bus stops. haha.

2009-10-28T01:33:00.003+08:00

there's been a video going on facebook recently of this 2 aussie girls singing tamia's officially missing you. and they're pretty good.

but ladies and gentlemen, there is no denying the original. please behold.

in any case.

long day tomorrow. rah. actually, long days everyday. zzz. starting to feel the heat. not to mention next week its BOSS. wootage.

2009-10-27T00:35:00.002+08:00

and the night just went kaboom.

fma isn't downloading fast enough for me to watch it tonight. fuck.

2009-10-26T20:46:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling the way you cross my mind

i love re-discovering my old favourites. this time it's michelle branch. woots. back to sec sch days. i have to say those days are farking cui. but still. good music dont die. yeah. lol.

it has been a good weekend, but it looks to be a busy week ahead. 4 presentations next week, and 3 reports the week after. then after that is exams. woots. cant wait.

didnt have proj meeting today. ended lesson at 12 and felt uber damn lost. hahahah. shit man. smu sucks life. still stayed in school anyway. blogging from school now.

phrase of the day by the cytan.

chiewyee says:
that's so sweet
chiewyee says:
you have got game

YES I DO BABEH.

and you save me in the nick of time

2009-10-25T01:35:00.002+08:00

500 days of summer was good. zooey deschanel is woots.

abit too short though. i think they could have done so much more with the concept. nevertheless still a good show.

alright. project meeting tomorrow. bleargh.

it was a very good night. heh

2009-10-23T01:32:00.002+08:00

gotta be more careful. learnt a good lesson today.

in other news.

there is no other news.

there is a picture though.

welcome to singapore management university's editon of.

SEX IN THE SR.

SEXCITED FTW.

2009-10-21T02:32:00.003+08:00

fun times. even though fleeting.

walking in the wee hours of the morning along city hall is one of the best feelings in the world.

unbothered, unfettered. for once, walking along slowly, freely. not rushing to somewehere, to meet someone, or to do something. just me, in my own element.

and it's quiet. no hustle and bustle. no sounds. everything stands still. at rest. at peace.

i love the night.

cause tonight's the night
the world begins again

2009-10-19T16:21:00.002+08:00

hearing good songs on radio always makes me feel damn good, for some weird reason.

yesterday it was the cranberries with ode to my family, in zg's ride. white bmw 5 owns.

slacking now. no mood to do work. so sue me. staying over in school tonight for ltb. woot.

bgs forums boomz. time for the great floodgates to open. torrential bullshit ftw!

i needs me time. and drink time. and ball time. and game time.

I NEED SCHOOL TO STOP RIGHT ABOUT NOW. zzz.

yellowcard and only one always reminds me of good ol' days at sa. boo.

no one is here by chance

2009-10-18T14:46:00.002+08:00

dying a little bit inside is hearing FFVII's main theme, and then hearing a member of the audience crying out "THAT'S ZELDA."

idiot of the century.

so sunday became BGS day. oh man.

nvm. time to chiong to proj. woots.

spending time youtubing video game music is not conducive for studying.

i want to go back to the days of being locked up in my room for days, in the worlds of final fantasy and chrono.

can't believe i played those stuff in sec 1, and the memories are still so fresh.

great games n great music never die.

2009-10-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

havent skated in ages.

balling tmr. yay.

rejuvenated. alright. ready for the road ahead. all out on the accelerator.

coz i am going to give it everything i've got.

wish me luck people. woots.

anyway. you guys shld check this fella out. some young singaporean dude.

2009-10-16T18:27:00.002+08:00

my weekly dose of anime keeps me sane, at least for 20 mins.

i can't wait for everything to be over.

but then again theres always something else. oh wells.

this is a very good song.

i've always been a dreamer
i've had my head among the clouds
now that I'm coming down
won't you be my solid ground

2009-10-15T00:02:00.004+08:00

inadequacy.

i always like to think i can do anything i set myself to, because i have complete faith in my abilities.

but sometimes, you can't help feeling helpless, feeling like you don't know where to go next, or what to do. feeling like a fool.

time to grit it. and grind it out.

so much euphoria, instantly gone. again. oh wells.

what goes up must come down.

it must be the lack of sleep.

i wanna fill this new frame
but it's empty

2009-10-13T02:26:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY BABEH.

in other news.

i can't watch fma today because [eclipse] did not come out with their subs. ):

but it's okay because although i screwed up my mid terms badly, at least they are OVER. now.

SUNDAY BABEH.

oh. and i do hope tomorrow night is gonna be great. yay. in the spirit of crazy smuggers.

2009-10-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

DEATH BY BGS COME HITHER

2009-10-11T12:59:00.002+08:00

cruising back home in lun's ride is always nets new discoveries of old songs. this time it was creed and the corrs, unplugged, no less. nice. my kind of music.

still havent started on AS, and havent completed BGS. can't friggin' wait for monday night. blah.

i need to shit.

what can i do to get you there

2009-10-09T00:58:00.002+08:00

so no ball , no whiskey. winner is me.

2 midterms on monday.

havent started studying.

multitude of ltb and bgs to do.

who wants to drink on monday night after 9pm. please let me know now.

i need my whiskey fix. fuck.

2009-10-07T21:33:00.003+08:00

I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT WAIT FOR MONDAY TO BE OVER. COME HITHER.

in other news.

ltb and bgs have been totally sucking my life.

then again i managed to finally catch up on sleep today. 4 hour nap OH SO GOOD. but now i am severely behind work. as usual.

lets see.

MID TERMS ON WEEK 9.
PRESENTATION WEEK 10.
PRESENTATION AGAIN WEEK 11.
MORE PRESENTATION WEEK 12.
STILL MORE PRESENTATION+ REPORT WRITING OLEH WEEK 13.
MUG MY HEART OUT WEEK 14.
DEATH BY FINAL EXAM WEEK 15.

nice. alright. GAME ON.

COMON BGS LET ME OWN YOU.

2009-10-06T01:03:00.002+08:00

fullmetal alchemist is getting better and better and better. omg. totally just making me fall in love with anime all over again.

in other news.

i am absolutely refusing to get my lazy ass to do work.

TUESDAY IS LTB DAY.

2009-10-05T15:31:00.001+08:00

take down
and bring it back up

ridin' the highs
diggin' the lows

at least i feel alive.

2009-10-02T01:09:00.004+08:00

you know sometimes you feel like you dont want the night to end. it has been the trend for me recently. not that the night's anything special. but the thought of facing yet another day makes you really really tired.

especially another frantic day of here there everywheres.

but maybe that's coz i stay awake for no apparent reason and then feel damn tired the next day. in which case i just shot myself. NICE.

wow i sound really stressed out. haha but no la im not. just feel like having some me time for a change.

just a little tired.

and i just remembered i forgot to finish some work. hurrays.

things just tend to congregate all together. how troublesome.

in other news.

polaroid fun.

2009-10-01T00:57:00.002+08:00

didn't bring my laptop charger, and my handphone was on one single bar of battery since last night. ownage sianness.

3 night in a row staying in school till 11+. not that im complaining. at least im surrounded by friends, which is more than i can ask for.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i want my kbox and nice long walk. and no project deadlines.

sucky.

i am hungry. i shall eat mooncake.

2009-09-29T00:57:00.002+08:00

and before bgs ended, it was a pretty horrid morning.

and then 2 words will sum up the rest of the day.

NICE LAH.

in other news.

actually there is no other news. all other news has been suspended in favour of this headline.

NICE LAH.

2009-09-28T00:09:00.003+08:00

recently in the mood for anime.

went to dig out all my old anime mp3s. nostalgia ftw.

blah.

i shall look forward to highlights of the week.

monday: GG. NOTHING.
tuesday: TUITION SOMEMORE. OMG.
wednesday: NOTHING AGAIN.
thursday: MAYHAPS DINNER. VELLEH GOOD.
friday: SKATES + MAF. VELLEH GOOD.
saturday: BALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
sunday: MORE MAF. VELLEH GOOD.

die. must survive 3 days first.

But I like being submerged
in your contradictions dear
Cuz here we are

here

we are

and what a beautiful mess, this is

2009-09-27T18:30:00.002+08:00

SEVERELY IRRITATED WITH THE WORKLOAD.

in any case.

won 15 bucks at mahjong. havent won at mahjong for some time. lol.

blah.

i am already waiting for december to come.

COME HITHER HOLIDAYS.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

i need to drink.

2009-09-25T10:17:00.002+08:00

it's hard to believe more than a year has passed since this photo.

good times man. lol.

2009-09-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

busted out that old utada hikaru cd. she remains one of my favourite singers ever.

absolutely refusing to do any work today. cant wait to skate tomorrow.

suddenly and seriously in need of some me time. some chill time. need to go drinking soon. wala wala or timbre anyone? c'mon.

freaking laptop charger cost me 160 bucks.

2009-09-21T23:46:00.002+08:00

i lost my water bottle.

i have lots of work undone, and a test to revise for.

i cant gym tomorrow.

i need to SLEEP.

FARK.

in other news.

jeff hardy > you.

2009-09-21T02:48:00.003+08:00

taking taxi from airport is heartpain man. lol.

brought the wrong books out to study, so ended up not really doing anything much. oh noes.

had a great time though.

in other news.

t3's viewing gallery sucks ass. lol.

yayness in great quantities.

tired. sleep tonight.

2009-09-18T01:22:00.004+08:00

YES LAH.

in other news. a very very busy weekend. oh my gosh.

mfe/ltb/skates/meeting tomorrow.

ball/ltb/ltb/tuition on sat.

mebbe ahgong birthday/mebbe lunch/yayness on sun.

bgs/bday dinner on sun.

but still.

YES LAH

2009-09-16T18:30:00.001+08:00

而你嫣然的一笑

如含苞待放

2009-09-16T00:18:00.002+08:00

need to get my lazy ass down to study study study study rarrgh.

distractions distractions distractions.

youtube needs to load faster.