Tuesday, January 26, 2010
and i hast moved.blacknw.tumblr.com by Dan 10:10 PM
i need a reason to stay, a reason to believe, a reason to keep at it.
damn it.
fucking useless.
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that never end by Dan 1:00 AM
Monday, January 25, 2010
new favourite song of mraz? i think so.
because I'm crazy like the rest of us
but I'm crazier when I'm next to her by Dan 9:50 PM
there are so many words that there are none. by Dan 2:03 AM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
still haven't started on fa and stats homework, am 2 chapters behind on bizlaw, and theres an 10% fa quiz on tuesday i havent even started studying for.add to that the need to train for ippt because i am pathetically unfit right now.
desperate for changing
starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
chasing after you
I'm hanging by a moment by Dan 9:50 PM
ns men interview was interesting.
im tired. lots of work to catch up on.
did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there? by Dan 12:38 AM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
assignment due tomorrow at 5pm, and i havent even got the textbook to do the questions. i'll have to buy the book tomorrow morning and rush it out.but then i have a 12-315 lesson. nice. what a bite in the ass by procrastination. oh well.
spent the whole of bizlaw trying to do the adrace website. will continue during tomorrow's statistics lesson.
also got utterly raped for asking a damn stupid question. looked like a bloody idiot.
since i don't have the txtbook, i can't do the questions tonight, i might as well dota after this and screw homework.
i can foresee my grades slipping even further this sem. oh well. to hell with it.
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
lifehouse is awesome.
if life is but a play, maybe we all should have scripts. so that we know what to say and what to do and what to expect.
because now i really dont. by Dan 11:42 PM
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
and then it starts raining at this hour.the wind, the music, the sounds of rain, the night.
three letters missing. by Dan 12:38 AM
looking through runawaytrain's old stuff, and came across this.
Lifehouse - Breathing
Cause I’m hanging on every word you said,
And even if you don’t wanna speak tonight
Thats alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to,
Sit outside heaven’s door and listen to you breathing
That’s where I wanna be yeah by Dan 12:08 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
想听你那边的空气有什麽精采的话题
你还是
温柔给我婉转的距离
伪装我自己
透明的叹息
最后
还是我的秘密 by Dan 9:48 PM
spending the late nights on dota and youtube and tumblr. what a thoroughly uneventful weekend.
early morning lesson, and i'm still up. oh well.
i like britain's got talent. it's much better than the pile of hogwash that is american idol.
choice is what we always want, but when it comes down to it, i think the absence of choice really makes it easier much of the time.
listening to sappy songs and reading mlia.
waiting for something, knowing theres nothing.
decisions.
riffs and distortions. what an escape.
by Dan 1:04 AM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
after all this timei was just a funny little footnote stuck at the bottom of the page
never meant to be part of the story. by Dan 2:27 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010
fucking horrible day. sigh.long day tomorrow. and i have yet to get started on the homework due tomorrow.
i still can't believe i lost just like that.
even in my dreams i cant escape.
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远 by Dan 6:30 PM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
i got a new phone. yay. nokia e63. the nokia qwerty phone everyone has. the cheap version, anyways. couldnt manage to find a pouch for it in 4 handphone shops though. anyone?ran 6km today. almost died doing so. damn bloody fucking unfit. zzz.
can't seem to get enough rest lately, although i spend much of my time lazing around at home.
is there a problem if you're 21 but looking forward to retirement?
shit i think im losing my marbles
Where can you run to escape from yourself? by Dan 9:05 PM
Thursday, January 7, 2010
books i want to read.A Clockwork Orange
Catch 22
1984
Every Single Gregory Maguire Book
LAST 2 SLIDES OF BIZLAW COME ON THIS LESSON END ALREADY by Dan 6:41 PM
school has barely started and work work work is piling piling piling.
i really have to get off my lazy ass and start working working working.
some things never change. going to send cheng off later. and eat popeye's i hope. impromptu k session was fun but expensive. darn. broke broke broke.
focus. don't lose it now. by Dan 1:03 PM
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
rough draft is awesome.maybe someday i look back, all these will seem funny or dumb or ridiculous.
but right now, that is a little hard to imagine.
management comms was interesting. financial accounting was boring. upcoming bizlaw and stats. omg stats. horror.
how do you tell a loss if u nvr owned it?
Quiet is my loudest cry
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me by Dan 3:49 PM
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
You know that feeling?That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible?
I want to believe that.
nick n norah's infinite playlist is an amazing film.
this is in all possibility gay and unmasculine and pussy and what have you, but i have totally fallen in love with this tumblr, and this tumblr, and this tumblr.
thats just a few among many others. makes me want to migrate to tumblr for easy following. maybe one day when i get off my lazy ass.
unless you can say no, i can't stop. by Dan 12:11 AM
Monday, January 4, 2010
我们重复沉默这样子单方面的守候 还能多久
But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it wasn't said to you
You touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone
When I sleep
You're everywhere
But when I wake
You're never there
So many blogs, pictures, words, texts, articles, news, posts, entries about lovers and being in love.
what of the loveless?
for once, I really, really have no idea what to do and where to go. by Dan 12:59 AM
Friday, January 1, 2010
and i spent the last hours of 2009 and the first hours of 2010 on garena, on dota, with other like-minded gamers who can't give a shit about the festive celebrations.ok, who am i kidding. we are losers who weren't invited to any sort of party. LOL.
oh wells. back to my roots. geeky online gaming ftw.
back to the roots is good i guess. that's where you first found yourself. for better or for worse.
should i just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads nowhere?
or would it just be better not to know. feeling like pandora's box was ripped open.
but even as pandora's evils were released, there was hope, wasn't there?
and yet, in one iteration of pandora's box, the ancient Greeks seemed to regard hope as dangerous as the rest of the evils, which was why it was sealed in pandora's box in the first place.
Perhaps every accidental cluster of people has a short period of grace, in between the initial shyness and prejudice on one hand and the eventual repugnance and betrayal on the other.
Wicked is a terrific read. many thanks to lun for the reccy.
some days all i wanna do is to fall into bed with a good book, hear the rain patter inccessantly outside the window, and just let my thoughts assail me. school's starting in 5 days, and i can't say i am glad. till then at least i can still look forward to cytan's 22nd.
perhaps.
just realised that this entry is so disjoint and without coherence.
like everything else.
happy new year then.
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other? by Dan 2:21 AM
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
in school for meeting, without my laptop charger and only 2 hours of batt remaining.in school for gym, without my matric card.
ruddy-fucking-brilliant. by Dan 1:26 PM
some differences can never be reconciled. by Dan 3:16 AM
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
alone on the bus at night, one of the few times i didn't feel like pulling out the book.good slow ride, the low whir of the engine and the soft voice of michelle branch playing in my plugs.
trying hard.
I'm feeling the way you cross my mind
You save me in the nick of time
I'm riding the highs, I'm digging the lows
But at least I feel alive
I never faced so many emotional days
But my life is good
i guess.
have to go to school tomorrow for meeting. sian.
meeting on saturday and i can't go.
school starts on monday. sian.
fuck. by Dan 11:24 PM
Saturday, December 26, 2009
see the things that matter.i really have to bear that in mind.
also, welcome to another episode of life lessons by daniel. today there is only one lesson, but it is nevertheless extremely important.
ALWAYS CHECK THE PRICE TAG, NO MATTER HOW CHEAP THE ITEM MAY LOOK.
thank you.
in other news, i am officially broke. like very, very, very seriously broke. cai peng from now on. no kidding. ok. after tmr's sopxmas. yay. sopxmas!
AND THEN CAI PENG.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
being in borders reminded me how i used to love books. so many books to read, so many games to play, so many movies to watch. so little time, and absolutely NO MONEY.im so broke i cant even be bothered to shop. i am very very tempted to just not buy any new clothes at all. blarh.
being in orchard also reminded me how much i HATE CROWDS.
也曾想过躲进别人温暖的怀中
可是这么一来就一点意义也没有 by Dan 11:00 PM
today i felt content. it's a good feeling, and not one that comes often. i gotta learn how to do it more. contentment.
i am feeling the temptation to throw caution to the wind.
thunder is an awesome song.
your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other? by Dan 12:46 AM
Sunday, December 20, 2009
"It's weird that whatever else is on your mind, whether it's the downfall of global economics or terrible environmental troubles, the thing that always gets you most is when you fancy someone."-Chris Martin, when asked about The Scientist
its a damn good song.
lost much at mahjong again. fark. mahjong luck has been total bullshit for quite some time now. zzz. and internet explorer is pissing me off by still refusing to load letssingit.
hope i can wake up later for ball. and then meeting sa og for dinner. how ownage is that. 4 years on. wow. i feel old.
right then. i need new songs. ikimonogakari's album in 3 days. by Dan 2:57 AM
Friday, December 18, 2009
Baby says I can't come with himAnd I had read all of this in his eyes
Long before he even said so
Why go, I asked?
You know, and I know why
And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here
I don't expect anything
remembering how rachael yamagata and quiet brought me through much of tekong days.
best lyrics ever. funny how songs i could never understand now seem so blatant.
What if I was someone different in your only history?
Would you feel the same
As I walk out the door
Never to see your face again
i guess you'd feel even less. by Dan 11:35 PM
and a few simple words from serxing that actually made a lot of sense really cleared my mind.
perhaps i was blinded all this while, shackled by the all the inadequacies. by Dan 4:12 AM
i think
i really haven't grown at all.
still the same stupid, useless, naive person. by Dan 3:25 AM
i am very tired.
however did the euphoria sink down to this? by Dan 2:57 AM
You're the kind of girl
who can take down a man
and lift him back up again
i have never doubted myself so much before. by Dan 1:52 AM
Thursday, December 17, 2009
one life lesson i forgot to mention.Ikea does not give shopping bags, hence the need for me to lug the basket around like a hobo.
oh, and Ikea's one dollar dogs pwn your ass. that's right, YOUR ass.
OKAY. since i have to be in school early tomorrow, or rather, approxymately 8 hours later today, i might as well hit the gym after that and work that gut.
hurrah hurrah. by Dan 12:35 AM
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
my friend's msn nick once saidsee the things that matter
what an excellent choice of words, really.
past all those layers, i wonder what i will find.
anyways. life's been good, and lets hope it stays that way. going to school tomorrow at 9am to meet and interview mega big shot in formal wear, followed by avatar, and then ball at night. woots. i hope avatar is good.
learnt many life lessons yesterday.
1. Carrying a basket full of belongings and food and walking on the streets makes you look like a damn hobo. this was one instance where the goatee didn't help.
2. Daiso has the smallest baskets ever. Waste my time. Basket.
3. Chocs and candies are damn expensive.
4. Some things are much harder than they look. WAY. MUCH. HARDER.
5. Working with a budget sucks. I need more money.
6. It's hard to face the problem when the problem is your face. (saw this on a random guy's tee shirt, lol)
7. Do not try to act tough and stand from pasir ris to jurong east on the train after not sleeping the entire night. You will feel like dying.
anyway, hurray to nice friends of people. yay. best method to crisis management is to recruit powerful allies. yes. lol. by Dan 6:54 PM
Sunday, December 13, 2009
totally digging alison sudol's red hair. for the uninitiated, she is also known as a fine frenzy, and she sang almost lover.
what a boring day. i am hungry.
the sweetest sadness
in your eyes
clever trick by Dan 2:13 PM
music at old school timbre was fucked. seriously, whatever happened to musicians? not going to ever go there again. substation ftw please. or walas. damn. lol.
effort effort effort effort effort. i need a damn break man. tired. blah.
the cranberries are so awesome i can't even begin to describe. dolores o'riordan is simply amazing.
blah. no inspiration to write at all. sucks. i hate it when i face this screen and nothing is able to come out, even when my mind is a whirlpool of thoughts. words words words words that refuse to come out proper but are disjoint and disoriented and make absolutely no sense.
ky's coming back tomorrow
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger? by Dan 12:31 AM
Saturday, December 12, 2009
wa. cleared the requirement, and am quite content.however, it still sucks to know i got pwned by the other scholars like no tomorrow. LOL. oh wells. IT IS OK. CLEAR REQUIREMENT FTW.
yes.
ball tomorrow! and then to spend money. dang. already damn bloody broke. still owe lun 13 bucks. damn. NO MOOLAHS I HAVE.
WHICH KOPI UNCLE NEED KOPI BOY? by Dan 2:53 AM
Friday, December 11, 2009
even in my dream i get pwned. wtf. lol.i need to ball more. and i need more money. whose daddy needs an odd-job boy. please let me know. i am willing to be paid in clothes, shoes, bags, shopping vouchers. by Dan 4:00 PM
Thursday, December 10, 2009
it's 2am, and god knows what i am still doing awake when im supposed to busting out the new feet tomorrow morning at the reservoir. dang.needs new songs and needs to work out.
needs money too. please remind me to eat cai peng everytime u see me from now on. kthnxbai. by Dan 1:57 AM
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
do you run a race you can't ever see yourself finishing?i guess it's different, because at least every step is sure to lead you closer to the end. but then again i guess i have nothing to lose in peservering.
or do i.
well.
i need some sense of direction. any kind would be nice. but maybe i have already gotten it.
i really cant see how i am or can become adequate.
oh wells. in other news. finally gonna get my new feet tomorrow. yays.
up down left right. top middle bottom. squares circles triangles rectangles. no no no no no no no no no don't want.
don't mind the random gibberish. too many ants.
I woke up one morning and I just knew.
Knew what?
What I was never sure of with you. by Dan 2:15 AM
Sunday, December 6, 2009
in the blur, in the flashes, amidst the lights and sounds and the deafening noise that makes you want to shut out your eyes and earsspinning and spinning and spinning
if we could just sit and watch the sky from dawn till dusk and then till dawn again
wanting the silence and the night to take us away, with only our own solitude for company
understanding that merely being in the presence is more than enough, with no need for cheap words or forced laughter
always remember
always recognise
always understand
what's truly important, and what's not
inconsistencies being the only consistency, ignoring the parts to look at the whole, or ignoring the whole to look at the parts
whichever way, eventually it is all the same. by Dan 3:10 AM
Thursday, December 3, 2009
rough draft is an awesome song. yellowcard. yeah.differing priorities, and when they are not possible to be aligned. do you give them up, do you doggedly persist, or do you feign ignorance in the hope it will lie forever undisturbed in the mud and never cause trouble?
gotta wake up my idea.
打起精神来！
I’m finding my own words
my own little stage
my own epic drama
my own scripted page
and then
maybe I'll send you its rough draft by Dan 11:44 PM
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
down the street, the lonely homebound traveller begins his weary trek back home, the path empty and melancholic, save for the street lamps dashing the pavement in soft yellow brilliance.the court is empty, the hoop is silent. soft music playing in his plugs, he envisions the shot, the ball silently floating home under starless skies. another time, another day, perhaps.
and in the dead of the night, the silence embraces and envelopes him. away from the noise, away from the sounds, thoughts unfettered and uncompromising.
making the decision is hard. sticking with it is even harder.
i am sorry but we interrupt the post with somecomments on singapore's television scene.
lun. HOLY DAYS. says:
lol!
MARTIN YAN ON OKTO
WOW
MARTIN YAN IS SOME ANCIENT SHAT
HAHA. in other news, running feels good. a good run to sort out thoughts is always good. right then. i might get down, i might get out. but at the end of the day i am not going to lose. by Dan 10:54 PM
keane did a great job in naming their first album. it's a very apt phrase.
running out of juice. damn.
self-discipline.
I tried my best to be guarded.
But I'm an open book instead.
hopes and fears by Dan 12:25 PM